Night time is when I miss Michael most of all. The stress of work and bills is taking it's toll on my sleep. I was up at 4 this morning and it is almost midnight. I was very tired but when my head hit the pillow, all I could feel was my sisters heart breaking...seeing his face.
My sweet kitty always tries to help by snuggling but there is nothing he can do...or me either.
I don't know if I should find a grief recovery group of my own or now.
I haven't been to church in a really long time. There is one close to home that I will try on Sunday.
I have lost touch with my creator so completly I don't even know if he hears me when I do speak.
Right now for reasons I won't go into I find myself dependant on the stored supplies I have on hand and realize that although I am blessed, I need to plan better. My stores are enough to last about 3 weeks but it is incomplete. Too many repeated meals.
So while I am using the stores I will plan and list things that I missed. When things are better, then I will know what to start stocking up on again.
Winter is coming and I need wood most of all. I will keep watching craigs list but others are thinking the same way. It goes fast.
Keeping on learning