OK IT IS 1AM AND I AM AWAKE. THERE ARE TWO COWS AND TWO CALVES ACROSS THE STREET THAT HAVE ALL THE COWS IN THE NEIGHBORHOOD IN AN UPROAR. THEY ARE BEING WEENED AND HAVE BEEN CALLING OUT TO EACH OTHER ALL DAY AND ALL NIGHT. WE FINALLY CLOSED THE WINDOWS AND TURNED ON THE A/C!
SITTING IN MY DARKENED LIVING ROOM WITH JUST THE LIGHT FROM MY COMPUTER, MY DAUGHTER AND I TALKED THROUGH ALL OF THE BAD THINGS GOING ON IN THE WORLD, THE SAD COWS, HOW MUCH FUN IT WILL BE FOR SHE AND I TO SIT IN THE CHICKEN HOUSE AND MAKE PETS OF THE CHICKENS LIKE WE USED TO. SHE IS VERY EXCITED ABOUT GETTING CHICKENS.
SHE AND I HAVE A HARD TIME WATCHING THE NEWS BECAUSE IT IS SO BAD.
MY SON CALLED TODAY FROM NC IN THE ARMY AND TOLD ME HIS GOOD FRIEND FROM THE LITTLE TOWN IN TX WHERE HE AND THIS BOY LIVED AND WERE FIRE FIGHTERS TOGETHER HAD GIVEN UP THE FIGHT AND COMMITTED SUICIDE. TOM HAD TRIED TO TALK THIS BOY INTO THE ARMY AND I KNOW TOM...HE WILL FEEL A FAILURE AND WILL THINK HE SHOULD HAVE TRIED HARDER. TOM TENDS TO TAKE ON THE WEIGHT OF THE WORLD ON HIS SHOULDERS.
WE WERE NOT CREATED FOR THIS. WE WERE CREATED FOR SO MUCH MORE THAN THIS. WE ARE A JIGSAW PUZZLE PIECE THAT JUST DOESN'T FIT WHERE IT IS AT...AND BECAUSE OF THIS THE WORLD IS IN AN UPROAR. CHILDREN AND PEOPLE SUFFER EVERY DAY.
I CAN'T WAIT TO BE WHERE I FIT.
THOUGHT: IF THIS WORLD DIDN'T SUCK SO BAD...WE'D ALL FALL OFF
4 comments:
I turned off my cable lately and maybe that was a good thing because now I feel more at peace, esp. being that I watched the news until probably I realized that I had sat for nearly 4 hrs hearing the same sad stuff repeated all that time...it wears on your soul, I know that now, that's probably why my mom is so happy she refuses to listen to negative things, you can only take so much of it. Sorry to hear about that kid. I feel sorry for his family.
Oh that is a really good point with hearing bad things over and over. My son said it might be nice just to be a hermit and close the gate and let the world go by. sometimes that sounds good to me.
I am tired of watching the news or hearing it on the radio. Can't wait to see your chickens running around in their new home! Had to laugh at the new drive thru comment. :)
I'm so sorry. My son lost friends of his as well. He won't talk about any of it.
Thank you to your son for serving and protecting.
~Faith
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