STILL WAITING

As I sit here waiting for Dad...the toilet king....I am thinking about a comment from a co-worker that I like very much.

He said in speaking about my personality "Well...if you think a certain way...it is Tracy's way or no way." or something along those lines.

God has been finding his way in and talking to me even though I haven't been talking much to Him.

What is the problem with my relationship with Him? I believe it is my lack of selflessness or rather my own selfishness.

Every time I think about asking Him to help change this in me...I know that won't be an easy or painless change so I don't ask...out of fear.

I found this today:

I [the Lord] will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with My eye upon you. (Ps. 32:8)

There should be no fear in me knowing that my creator is watching over me while I learn and change. But then I look at the life of my sister and the fear remains.